A little update

So Hi guys. It’s been a while.

Life has been treating me with some punches but also some laughter along the way. But you know, that’s residency for you 😅

I have so many things to update this blog about but with a national exam coming up I’ll try to update a little.

Got my 3rd vaccine jab a few days ago (Healthcareworkers in Indonesia got 2 doses of Sinovac vaccine at the beginning of the year and got a privilege to get a 3rd jab with Moderna). I hadn’t really researched what the side effects were other than stories from my friends who got the jab earlier than me.

People said the effects were massive and they were feeling awful, local pain, fever, even some nauseousness and restlessness.

While a few little said nothing really happened. Only local pain for a while.

Thankfully I got the vaccine at Thursday so I only have one day to be at the hospital with the vaccine side effects and then get to rest for the weekend.

Apparently I belong to the latter group 😅

The first day I couldn’t move left arm.

The second day I could move it more, I felt little bit unwell (a bit of a fever) in the afternoon, took a nap for two hours and woke up feeling fresh again.

By the third day I feel totally fine, I couldn’t lift my arm all the way up but I think it’s fine.

New (Old) Hobbies

As you read from my previous post, I started to draw again. But also, I started writing more (fiction, journals).

It’s all because I opened up an email mailbox that haven’t been active for a while. That email was linked to my old blog that I stopped writing in 2017 (story for another day), but actually you can read them here

To be honest, reading my old blog is like reading from someone else’s view, even though it’s 19 year old me. And I asked myself did I change for the better or not. But I certainly wished that there are more things I was more passionate about. I mean I still like the things I liked then, but not as passionate.

And that includes writing. I wish I kept track of what my days looked like. I wish I could look back with proof like diary entries.

So that’s what I do. The last time I write consistently is when I was in 6th grade.

Being someone who is very hard to express her feelings (and not allowed to in most situations), I usually write stories and pour a bit of what I am feeling there. I don’t know, something about writing about it in third person view gave me new insights of the problem.

But what happens if I am in a writers block? I don’t write that much in the last few years and I repressed my feelings more and more. Making me into someone who is more pessimistic, and letting myself be consumed by residency and life.

Journaling felt like an outlet where I could write anything that I feel about. Be it good or bad, be it silly or it means something. No one would judge (although pretty sure if people read it, some people would get pretty upset) and the best thing is that I can write or draw anything there 😂

New Interest

I’ve always been someone who likes stationaries. I love cream colered lined notebooks, and I like thin line gel pens, also color markers and color pencils.

But ecommerce and youtube somehow brought me into the fountain pen world and… yep, now I write with fountain pens 😂 and let me tell you it’s a rabbit hole guys. I’ll make a dedicated post and write reviews about it.

So… I guess that’s my update. I don’t know why but I really feel like I am finding myself again through this hobbies.

Drawing makes me realize how my life path is very different than who my teacher in highschool thought I would be. It made me realize that I don’t have to fit into a box of other people expectations.

While writing is the essence of who I am as an individual. Something that I always associate as an innate thing.

I guess it’s a good update right? I hope that in every struggle you are going through, you don’t lose yourself. I hope that you can see the light at the end of the tunnel.

God bless you. Stay healthy!